It seems like you found a new family here. [There's a small sense of regret. It makes her death feel a bit more real, though it's not Willow's fault. Time passed without her, life went on. People went to different realms and maybe set down roots.] I think they feel the same about you.
[She's the outsider again, just like she was in the beginning. There was no doubt they would make exceptions and welcome her, but it's hard to be put back in that situation again. And given everything she's gone through and has to deal with, she isn't sure she's got the ability to process this all now.]
[There's the same fondness in her tone. Deerington from Sunnydale had been a difficult transition - she had arrived to find Buffy alive and well after sacrificing herself to save the world, and it solidified the idea that her death had meant being trapped in some kind of hell dimension. Giles had been here as well, and it didn't seem so terrible with at least a few of their number from home. Then Giles had been sent home the first time she visited his house, and she moved in with Buffy. Within weeks, Buffy was gone as well, and Willow was alone.
It had been miserable. She had never lived alone before, and she quickly learned she didn't care for it. The house was too big, too quiet, and too empty. She much prefers to be part of a busy household.]
I'm pretty sure they all realize how great you are too.
[Tara nodded, but unsure. It wasn't as if they'd have any reason not to like her, but at the moment, it feels like they accept her more for Willow's sake. Add in her general weirdness, it probably doesn't help them get a real sense of who she is.
Living alone is something she can manage, having done it a lot more than living with someone. It was only when she met Willow that it changed. With all her confusion, out of sorts feeling, being alone wouldn't be a bad thing. But she couldn't leave Willow and didn't feel comfortable being apart from her.
Of course they do. It's not like they never heard about you before you came to town.
[They all accepted her readily enough, and while it took a little time for her to open up, she doesn't think there's a person in this house that she hasn't talked about Tara to.
It's hardly a surprise that Tara is left feeling like the outsider again, given the advantage Willow has had in getting to know her housemates over the last year, but she's more than willing to help facilitate acceptance any way that she can and pull Tara into the life that she's found here.]
You just have to give them a chance to get to know you a little more.
[Her attempt at being funny, but her heart wasn't entirely in it. Connecting to someone in a new world, those that already knew Willow, and doing it all when she felt absolutely nothing, it seemed like an impossible task. If she had to force herself in Sunnydale, it was going to be a sheer struggle here.
She does her best to mask her uncertainty.]
I'll give them a chance.
[It's just whether they'll give her a chance and not think too much of her being weird.]
Um, do you guys ever have long study sessions like Sunnydale?
[Willow gives a wistful smile. She remembers the conversation with Ozpin when she first told him about Tara's arrival in Trench - she had been overjoyed to see Tara alive and safe and seemingly well again, but it was impossible not to acknowledge that it was also a complex situation given everything that had happened after Tara's death.
She is still determined to help find a way forward together.]
Yeah. I spend a lot of time reading in the library with Ozpin. You can always come too - whenever you want. And Oscar loves reading too - after... everything, he offered to help too next time we need a study buddy.
Maybe. [She wasn't sure. It wasn't as if she wasn't a full time student like before, but there was also less danger in the same way it was present in Sunnydale.] I'm sure I'll see them around here also and we'll have a chance to talk alone.
[Which might be important, if she was going to exist for them outside of Willow.]
Their world's a lot different from ours - Ange's too. And Glitch's is really different again.
[She's not sure how much detail she should go into. Perhaps it's best to let her housemates explain more about where they come from, should Tara choose to bring it up. She smiles, though.]
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Date: 2022-02-23 12:37 am (UTC)[She's the outsider again, just like she was in the beginning. There was no doubt they would make exceptions and welcome her, but it's hard to be put back in that situation again. And given everything she's gone through and has to deal with, she isn't sure she's got the ability to process this all now.]
Yeah. We'll get through it.
[Less committal in tone.]
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Date: 2022-02-23 02:52 pm (UTC)[There's the same fondness in her tone. Deerington from Sunnydale had been a difficult transition - she had arrived to find Buffy alive and well after sacrificing herself to save the world, and it solidified the idea that her death had meant being trapped in some kind of hell dimension. Giles had been here as well, and it didn't seem so terrible with at least a few of their number from home. Then Giles had been sent home the first time she visited his house, and she moved in with Buffy. Within weeks, Buffy was gone as well, and Willow was alone.
It had been miserable. She had never lived alone before, and she quickly learned she didn't care for it. The house was too big, too quiet, and too empty. She much prefers to be part of a busy household.]
I'm pretty sure they all realize how great you are too.
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Date: 2022-02-26 09:05 pm (UTC)Living alone is something she can manage, having done it a lot more than living with someone. It was only when she met Willow that it changed. With all her confusion, out of sorts feeling, being alone wouldn't be a bad thing. But she couldn't leave Willow and didn't feel comfortable being apart from her.
She might be numb, but she still loved Willow.]
I hope so.
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Date: 2022-02-27 12:36 am (UTC)[They all accepted her readily enough, and while it took a little time for her to open up, she doesn't think there's a person in this house that she hasn't talked about Tara to.
It's hardly a surprise that Tara is left feeling like the outsider again, given the advantage Willow has had in getting to know her housemates over the last year, but she's more than willing to help facilitate acceptance any way that she can and pull Tara into the life that she's found here.]
You just have to give them a chance to get to know you a little more.
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Date: 2022-03-05 10:40 pm (UTC)[Her attempt at being funny, but her heart wasn't entirely in it. Connecting to someone in a new world, those that already knew Willow, and doing it all when she felt absolutely nothing, it seemed like an impossible task. If she had to force herself in Sunnydale, it was going to be a sheer struggle here.
She does her best to mask her uncertainty.]
I'll give them a chance.
[It's just whether they'll give her a chance and not think too much of her being weird.]
Um, do you guys ever have long study sessions like Sunnydale?
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Date: 2022-03-06 02:47 am (UTC)She is still determined to help find a way forward together.]
Yeah. I spend a lot of time reading in the library with Ozpin. You can always come too - whenever you want. And Oscar loves reading too - after... everything, he offered to help too next time we need a study buddy.
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Date: 2022-03-11 01:15 am (UTC)[Which might be important, if she was going to exist for them outside of Willow.]
They do seem nice.
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Date: 2022-03-11 09:32 pm (UTC)[She's not sure how much detail she should go into. Perhaps it's best to let her housemates explain more about where they come from, should Tara choose to bring it up. She smiles, though.]
They all are really nice. You'll see.